Make way minions. Here we come...So a few weeks back my brother decides to go out to the Delta.
Hes got a pretty sweet ride. Old school flat bottom race boat. Fast as HELL.
Anyways..
Niece, Nephew and BOTH brothers were out.
Check some pix0rz.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
The Snellings Invade The Delta...
Make way minions. Here we come...So a few weeks back my brother decides to go out to the Delta.
Hes got a pretty sweet ride. Old school flat bottom race boat. Fast as HELL.
Anyways..
Niece, Nephew and BOTH brothers were out.
Check some pix0rz.
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
up and down...
Geezuz. Ive been so up and down with everything lately. I dunno if its the weather or if I really have some sort of depression problem. Hah.
I feel like im pushing my boyfriend away. I nit pick. Not specifically I suppose. But. Theres things that he does, that I feel he can go about doing in different ways. A lil less disrespectful. And I guess its not even disrespectful. Im not even sure what it is. But sometimes his actions just BUG me with no end.
I havent seen him or talked to him much this whole week. Its wednesday and its just not like us. Were together all the time. It doesnt matter. Or..at least talking to each other. It seems like this past week or so... hes just vanished. Or maybe I have? He wont return text messages, or text at all for that matter. The last few times Ive called...he hasnt picked up.
I havent really brought to his attention how his actions lately have been affecting me. Im not even sure I should. See. Ive been so up and down lately. Some days im bummed about school, or work, or my relationship with my mom, friends...if you can call them that. And now my guy. He always was good about getting me out of those slumps. He always made me happy. When he was around I had no worry about anything. It just simply didnt matter. Ive noticed however, that when its sunny out, and I can see those green hills everyday I feel so much better. Alive. Motivated. Less insecure. But when its gloomy like it is today, thats how I feel. Gloomy.
I wonder if I just over think things. I think I can be a pretty flexable easy going person. I suppose it just depends on how you approach me with things. Maybe thats what it is. I feel im easy going, but when you approach or take advantage of that in the wrong way. I think maybe I get offended. Not so much with the situation, but with how the other person may have taken care of whatever. If that makes sense? Im blabbing I know. But. Sadly...I have no one else to blab to. heh
Ok. So for instance. Monday night. Ryan says he just got home from playing Basket Ball. ( ok thanks for the invite to watch. whatever) So hes going to take a shower. Ok. Cool. I invite him to take his shower at my house. He says maybe. Meh... whatevs. I understand that one. I guess I was just coming up with a good for nothing reason for him to be over. So. I say, that he should come over. Cuz I miss him blah blah blah. He says maybe. If im lucky. With a winky face of course. heh. An hour or two goes by. I text him back... apparently I wasnt lucky enough? Few minutes later he comes back and says hes at the bar with his roomate. Uhm. Couldnt you have said that in the beginning? I dont give a shit. I dont have to see him every night. It would be nice. But I dont. I understand he goes out. I understand he has more buds than I do. hah. I dont care. I dont think im one of those controlling weird girls that give their guys curfews or limits or rules. GO HAVE FUCKIN FUN. Go to the bar. Call me if you want me to give you a ride home. I DONT CARE. But.. why couldnt he have just said," Well babe, I guess we are gonna go head out to the bars. Maybe I can see you tomorrow night?" something..anything. Instead... it almost seems he purposely kept me on my toes. And why?
He did something similiar last night. And now im just kinda pissy. I mean. Am I wrong? Couldnt there have been another way of his actual actions? Isnt there some sort of other boyfriend-ly way he could have related his new plans back to me?
I dunno. I think with those last few actions, and his lack of communication during the day lately, scares the shit out of me. Am I pushing him away? Is he just over it? Somebody else?
He told me awhile ago, that the reason and way him and his last girlfriend broke up, was because he just stopped coming around. He said he was just over it, and it didnt matter anymore. All communication stopped. He would flake. And just not come around anymore. I mean. Granted she was a crazy BLONDE bitch. Drama to the fullest. And, I dont blame him. Nor do I understand why he was with her ( or any of his past exes for that matter) But. It just leaves me worried NOW. Right here. Whats going on.
But like I said. Maybe its me. Maybe its the weather. The moons rotation. The way the tide came in last night. My up and down? Me over thinking again? Or maybe my intuition and gut feelings are right.
I hope they arent right. I hope the tide came in funny... and the weather is playing tricks on me.
Maybe tomorrow Ill be married.
Until then...
I feel like im pushing my boyfriend away. I nit pick. Not specifically I suppose. But. Theres things that he does, that I feel he can go about doing in different ways. A lil less disrespectful. And I guess its not even disrespectful. Im not even sure what it is. But sometimes his actions just BUG me with no end.
I havent seen him or talked to him much this whole week. Its wednesday and its just not like us. Were together all the time. It doesnt matter. Or..at least talking to each other. It seems like this past week or so... hes just vanished. Or maybe I have? He wont return text messages, or text at all for that matter. The last few times Ive called...he hasnt picked up.
I havent really brought to his attention how his actions lately have been affecting me. Im not even sure I should. See. Ive been so up and down lately. Some days im bummed about school, or work, or my relationship with my mom, friends...if you can call them that. And now my guy. He always was good about getting me out of those slumps. He always made me happy. When he was around I had no worry about anything. It just simply didnt matter. Ive noticed however, that when its sunny out, and I can see those green hills everyday I feel so much better. Alive. Motivated. Less insecure. But when its gloomy like it is today, thats how I feel. Gloomy.
I wonder if I just over think things. I think I can be a pretty flexable easy going person. I suppose it just depends on how you approach me with things. Maybe thats what it is. I feel im easy going, but when you approach or take advantage of that in the wrong way. I think maybe I get offended. Not so much with the situation, but with how the other person may have taken care of whatever. If that makes sense? Im blabbing I know. But. Sadly...I have no one else to blab to. heh
Ok. So for instance. Monday night. Ryan says he just got home from playing Basket Ball. ( ok thanks for the invite to watch. whatever) So hes going to take a shower. Ok. Cool. I invite him to take his shower at my house. He says maybe. Meh... whatevs. I understand that one. I guess I was just coming up with a good for nothing reason for him to be over. So. I say, that he should come over. Cuz I miss him blah blah blah. He says maybe. If im lucky. With a winky face of course. heh. An hour or two goes by. I text him back... apparently I wasnt lucky enough? Few minutes later he comes back and says hes at the bar with his roomate. Uhm. Couldnt you have said that in the beginning? I dont give a shit. I dont have to see him every night. It would be nice. But I dont. I understand he goes out. I understand he has more buds than I do. hah. I dont care. I dont think im one of those controlling weird girls that give their guys curfews or limits or rules. GO HAVE FUCKIN FUN. Go to the bar. Call me if you want me to give you a ride home. I DONT CARE. But.. why couldnt he have just said," Well babe, I guess we are gonna go head out to the bars. Maybe I can see you tomorrow night?" something..anything. Instead... it almost seems he purposely kept me on my toes. And why?
He did something similiar last night. And now im just kinda pissy. I mean. Am I wrong? Couldnt there have been another way of his actual actions? Isnt there some sort of other boyfriend-ly way he could have related his new plans back to me?
I dunno. I think with those last few actions, and his lack of communication during the day lately, scares the shit out of me. Am I pushing him away? Is he just over it? Somebody else?
He told me awhile ago, that the reason and way him and his last girlfriend broke up, was because he just stopped coming around. He said he was just over it, and it didnt matter anymore. All communication stopped. He would flake. And just not come around anymore. I mean. Granted she was a crazy BLONDE bitch. Drama to the fullest. And, I dont blame him. Nor do I understand why he was with her ( or any of his past exes for that matter) But. It just leaves me worried NOW. Right here. Whats going on.
But like I said. Maybe its me. Maybe its the weather. The moons rotation. The way the tide came in last night. My up and down? Me over thinking again? Or maybe my intuition and gut feelings are right.
I hope they arent right. I hope the tide came in funny... and the weather is playing tricks on me.
Maybe tomorrow Ill be married.
Until then...
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